rcesantos

OMGOMGOMG

2008-11-03T13:22:43Z

OMG naka 16 units ako sa CRS!!!

isn't that wonderful? :D

at may PE pa ako.

and that's without being RegCom. Hah!

sorry. XD

cellphone

2008-10-19T14:42:38Z

my new number: 09277820402.

matagal na ako actually may bagong number pero nitamad ako mag-update. oh well.

wonderful

2008-10-19T14:41:41Z

waw may magical feature pala ang multiply... multiple blog crossposting and importing! how handy. :p wala lang. :D so i'll be controlling all the blogs from here. XD

rcesantos @ 2007-03-18T11:22:00

2007-03-18T03:42:45Z

i am very happy. which means i wouldn't be posting that much here. :P

desperation is what drives me to write in my blog. just like in previous years, i write only when i want to say something that i can't say to the person personally. i've been a chicken. dang foo.

someone taught me a lesson. and that someone's special. :D saying things as they are (being frank) do not make the message worse or devaluate the excitement or sentimental meaning/value of the message, it saves you the time and trouble assuming what the other person might be implying. and it gets things running easier and smother. :D

there must be a third and last dance, this one will last forever.

people change. but some do not. and most do not know what is change anyway. XD

triens chorea est amorem. amor est choreae aeternam.

i changed so much. i like it. :D

i am yours. : )

renze out. :D

rcesantos @ 2007-02-26T19:05:00

2007-02-26T11:27:23Z

i lost control over my brain.

i miss my old self.

i miss gaining control over my dreams.

i miss control over my life.

yes. i miss the feeling of being secure.

i miss the feeling of being loved.

the hands of comfort.

the arms of solace.

(or am i just so stressed out.)

no. i'm sure of this feeling inside me.

butterflies in my chest.

curse you paris hilton. curse you.

seeing your face in my dreams...

hearing your voice in my mind...

everything reminds me of you...

i always want to be with you...

longing for your smile...

always wanting to be with you...

oo. ikaw. hindi kay paris sheldon.

rcesantos @ 2007-02-10T23:40:00

2007-02-10T15:55:06Z

i'm really confused.

could someone help me?

i can't make sense of the information my poor brain is constantly receiving everyday.

information i coerced, hacked -- one word, illegally obtained.

i hope i just don't end up in my own web of deceit.

i'm depressed again!

voices

it's killing me.

images

delusion

lies

i'm lost in my own glass box.

rebuttal

2007-01-29T11:24:24Z

guys' brains aren't always for sex.

it is not true that 98% of our brain time (time that the brain functions) is solely dedicated for sex.

brain time dedicated to "sex" is only 5%-30%, which varies from age group, climate, racial orientation and religious affiliation, with off-peak hours during occupied times (in-love state, academics) an dpeak during cold days.

in fact IDLENESS is what occupies most of guys' brains! (not including passive time [sleep])

as much as 40% during peak season!

idle time includes mental DotA simulations, massive information reception and disintegration, and other unnecessary mental processes.

burn it onto your hearts.

a conversation that will rival socrates, plato, aristotle or any philosopher.

2007-01-27T12:24:44Z

Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:23:46 PM): covey. :D
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:23:51 PM): talaga?
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:23:55 PM): d q alam eh.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:23:56 PM): yis
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:23:58 PM): =]
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:23:58 PM): hehe
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:24:00 PM): k lang
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:24:33 PM): buntis na si barbie :C
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:24:41 PM): cnu c barbie?
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:24:46 PM): almalbius
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:25:09 PM): ay talaga?
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:25:11 PM): awww
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:25:13 PM): well,
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:25:18 PM): edi magkaka polly na!
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:26:40 PM): haha.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:26:49 PM): honasan pala asawa nya.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:26:56 PM): rebel polly
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:27:20 PM): polly gone wild!
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:27:30 PM): ay nde nde!
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:27:37 PM): kc honasan sha...
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:27:38 PM): ....
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:27:42 PM): sha ay,
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:27:43 PM): polly
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:27:46 PM): tician!
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:27:48 PM): wahahahahah!
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:27:50 PM): T_T
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:27:51 PM):
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:27:52 PM): hahaa.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:27:55 PM):
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:27:59 PM): bumenta sakin.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:28:02 PM): hahaha
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:28:05 PM): expected
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:28:06 PM): haha
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:28:23 PM): sayang. ambata ng anak nya. 17 years agwat namin. :C
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:28:28 PM): di talaga pwede.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:28:34 PM): P***ANG ***...
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:28:40 PM): fetus plng...
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:28:43 PM): ugh.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:28:45 PM): maganda ung nanay eh.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:28:55 PM): look beyond lloyd.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:29:24 PM): NO.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:29:54 PM): hindi ko naman papatulan ung 15 below.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:30:04 PM): pag w'woman' na
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:30:09 PM): grrrr.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:31:31 PM): bsta ganun.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:31:31 PM): haha
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:31:33 PM): khit na
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:31:35 PM): pwet
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:31:51 PM): maaapreciate ko lang yun after 15 years. or 18.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:31:52 PM): pinagisipan mo p din e
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:32:01 PM): maghihintay naman ako eh. :"C
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:32:17 PM): kung hindi maganda pag laki eh di babaay.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:32:32 PM): DOM ka na nub...asshole
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:33:52 PM): oo nga no...tumatanda pala ako. :'c
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:34:43 PM): bwct.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:34:46 PM): oh well.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:35:06 PM): anung kala mo??constant ka sa time-space continuum?
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:35:12 PM): wapak
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:36:16 PM): constant ako.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:36:26 PM): kaya nga tumatanda eh.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:37:12 PM): nasa isang point lang ako sa 4th component.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:37:25 PM): habang lahat ng bagay ay nagpoprogress dun.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:38:20 PM): constant=no change.........
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:38:44 PM): ay wait..
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:38:47 PM): pwede rin pala
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:38:55 PM): andaming ways pwede iview a
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:38:56 PM): astig
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:39:01 PM): hmmm
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:39:12 PM): mag applied physics tayo!
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:39:20 PM): constant appearance mo.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:39:53 PM): pero yung value mo in the 4th component eh nagproprogress equal sa progression ng time.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:40:21 PM): "speed" (renze)= "speed" (time)
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:40:33 PM): so renze = time
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:40:34 PM): wakok!
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:40:36 PM): joke un!
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:40:37 PM): wohoo!
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:41:06 PM): yes. pag kinancel mo ang time.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:41:10 PM): at wait , indi sha pwedeng mging linear ang proportion
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:41:27 PM): so bale mangyayari yun pag tumigil ang time.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:41:30 PM): that is just too simple
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:41:40 PM): which is impossible
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:41:41 PM): OR
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:41:43 PM): or if you see time as not moving or progressing.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:41:44 PM): at time zero
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:42:06 PM): if you run with equal speed with it.^_^
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:42:13 PM): or light
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:42:14 PM): "speed" ng time.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:42:18 PM): oonga
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:42:26 PM): wala talagang speed ang time.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:42:27 PM): kso ndi naqquatitate un e
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:42:30 PM): un nga.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:42:52 PM): hindi rin naoobserve ang accelerationng time sa perspective natin.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:43:01 PM): i beg to diifer
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:43:08 PM): *differnaoobserve un..
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:43:11 PM): dahil hindi scope ng modern day physics yun.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:43:34 PM): no no, ndi lang natin maquantitate tlga
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:43:37 PM): kc kung observe
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:43:46 PM): parng earthquake na richter scale
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:43:51 PM): pwedeng in an omniscient view, pwedeng mag-accelerate ang time.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:43:54 PM): we observe it through its manifestations
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:44:13 PM): wait, di ko gets point mo dun.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:44:15 PM): gn2 yun.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:44:29 PM): omniscient view?edi ndi lalong gagalaw un?
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:44:38 PM): wait
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:45:08 PM): our time is progressing in a "speed" (let us use "speed" as the rate of progreession)
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:45:22 PM): in a "speed" equal to x.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:45:28 PM): cgecge
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:45:30 PM): go on
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:45:31 PM): un ung normal for us right?
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:45:44 PM): ge
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:45:45 PM): tama
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:45:50 PM): now if we have speed=x+1
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:46:02 PM): bibilis ang galaw natin
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:46:05 PM): supposedly.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:46:15 PM): pero hindi natin maoobserve yun.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:46:20 PM): oo naman
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:46:24 PM): kasi dapat nasa labas tayo ng box.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:46:33 PM): parang yung mga tao sa loob ng tv mo.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:46:34 PM): kc magkakancel lang un kung lahat tau gnun e
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:46:43 PM): or unless the other half of the world lang
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:46:51 PM): pag finast forward mosila, bumibilis sila sa perspective mo.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:47:05 PM): pero sa kanila, its just normal
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:47:10 PM): pero kung ikaw yung nasa loob ng tv, hindi mo alam na mabilis pala ang playback speed mo
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:47:14 PM): unless they are constantly aware na may gumagalawa
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:47:21 PM): un nga
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:47:21 PM): yes.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:47:27 PM): good.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:47:32 PM): ayun!
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:47:34 PM): finally
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:47:38 PM): kc time is relative.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:47:41 PM): kc time is relative.\
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:48:06 PM): kc kung absolute, madali na shang iquantize.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:48:11 PM): so if renze "speed = time "speed", renze's age will remain constant.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:48:26 PM): WHICH IS IMPOSSIBLE.T_T
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:48:28 PM): asa tol.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:48:36 PM): i'll find a way to do so.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:48:42 PM): anu ka magneto?
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:48:43 PM): the secret of immortality.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:49:09 PM): that is just impossible. kc to achieve immortality, u have to drag us with u
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:49:13 PM): renze's theory of immortality.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:49:16 PM): no.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:49:21 PM): Yes.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:49:24 PM): o cge. go on.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:49:28 PM): i have to be different from you.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:49:29 PM): icocounter ko
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:49:44 PM): un nga ung imposible e
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:49:52 PM): i'll find a way.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:50:07 PM): pag nalaman ko sabihin ko sayo.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:50:20 PM): the only way na magging immortal ka is to drag us with you, kc nga sa time variable, everything influences everything else. =p
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:50:25 PM): tapos bayaran mo ko para sabihin ko sayo yung secret.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:50:28 PM): and BALANCE.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:50:30 PM): no.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:50:37 PM): you don't get me.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:51:06 PM): gs2 mo ng explanation?
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:51:53 PM): or you dont get me.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:52:05 PM): it goes either way
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:52:06 PM): -p[
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:52:09 PM): =p
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:52:13 PM): nde. may iba akong point of view. ibang quantum
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:52:23 PM): if it's true, we could be immortals.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:52:40 PM): if it's not, i'll be a Nobel physics laureate.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:52:45 PM):
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:52:51 PM): LOL.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:52:55 PM): kc ganito sakin e.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:53:09 PM): go.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:53:40 PM): dun nga sa mga tao sa box, everybody influences everybody else. influence in a way na if we are in the same world, we share the same speed of time.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:53:57 PM): ofcourse disregarding the fact na nasa different timezones tayo minsan.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:54:06 PM): pero un lng naman ung ABSOLUTE e.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:54:19 PM): ung relative, constant un satin.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:54:21 PM): holy shit.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:54:23 PM): wait
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:54:26 PM): rephrase.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:54:36 PM): ung speed, is constant
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:54:37 PM): un.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:54:42 PM): gets m naman un db
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:54:44 PM): so.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:55:03 PM): yang point na yan, ang sinasabi mo, eh pag may ginawa ako, somehow madadamay kayo kasi nasa iisang plane tayo.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:55:14 PM): pero this is my POINt.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:55:18 PM): wait lang wait lang. =p
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:55:25 PM): hmm
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:55:25 PM): ano?
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:55:38 PM): eto.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:56:11 PM): imagine we're in a flooded highway.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:56:20 PM): wait laaaaaaaaaaaaaaang.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:56:22 PM): pwet.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:57:06 PM): ?
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:57:32 PM): ano?
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:57:37 PM): so if u are to achieve immortality, its either u have unlimited time, or ur time progresses at such a slow speed that the graph of the time to space is almost a horizontal line, or the diference between two arbitrary points in ur universe na may time at space factors, x1 at x2, ang difference almost approaches zero.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:57:52 PM): e since we accept nga na nasa iisang box tayo,
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:57:59 PM): dapat kmi rin ganun.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:59:05 PM): ok. assuming na ganon.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 6:59:25 PM): o.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 6:59:59 PM): ganito.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:00:09 PM): assuming we're in a flooded highway.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:00:13 PM): o
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:00:20 PM): we are all in it, trying to move forward.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:01:00 PM): but the flood allows us to progress in a constant "motion" that we cannot overtake our grandfathers and get back to our sons.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:01:47 PM): but if we find a way to get out of the flood, and move wherever we want, or stay at a single point in the highway, we are immortals.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:03:20 PM): but un nga e, assuming we are ALL in it. ibig sabihin nun, u have someone behind. unless u have a lane all to urself. we are influenced by others. itutulak ka nila to move. because doing wat u sed will cause a stoppage. kc we SHARE the highway.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:03:41 PM): hmm.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:04:00 PM): that's why you have to GET OFF that highway.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:04:25 PM): abd disregard time?hahahaha.cge lang. lipat tau dimension.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:04:32 PM): exactly.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:04:32 PM): hanap ka blackhole tas pasok tayo
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:04:50 PM): no. not the blackhole thing. that's so primitive.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:05:11 PM): kailangan lang natin ng higher consciousness.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:05:13 PM): gaga. ndi naman un parng religion shit noh.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:05:14 PM): i think.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:05:17 PM): oops.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:05:18 PM): hehe
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:05:25 PM): hmm
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:05:44 PM): we just have to understand the nature of time more than any einsten combined with all people we know.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:05:45 PM): ung einstein explanation kc ung cnsasbi ko.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:05:47 PM): =]
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:06:02 PM): you're bound by the theory of relativity.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:06:12 PM): ituloy mo ang trabaho ni einstein.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:06:22 PM): gawin nating Law.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:06:26 PM): idisprove ung theory nya.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:06:57 PM): nahh, i have a lot of earning money to do.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:06:59 PM): hahaha.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:07:17 PM): partial ignorance is bliss.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:07:18 PM): haha
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:07:20 PM): inalter e noh
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:07:29 PM): in short tinatamad ako.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:07:46 PM): and i would be accused by the likes of you as an antichrist, right?
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:08:02 PM): because i am defying the LAW of GOD.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:08:22 PM): right.ako.haha.yes, i am one to be called bible belted huh.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:08:24 PM): hahahaha.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:11:07 PM): and wait i suddenly remembered.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:11:15 PM): yari ka dito.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:11:37 PM): being immortal would defy a LAW pala.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:11:45 PM): not just a theory
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:11:51 PM): but LAWs are created by humans.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:12:09 PM): ah, so God person ka naman ngaun?
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:12:10 PM): hahaha.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:12:11 PM): formulated, rather.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:12:16 PM): not necessarily.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:12:35 PM): i'm just claiming to be smarter than the wisest person.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:12:53 PM): and eventually be regarded as mentally incapable.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:13:06 PM): ambabaw nun.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:13:06 PM): what a flawed society.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:13:13 PM): EXACTLY.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:13:19 PM): eugenics tayo renze!
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:13:23 PM): haha.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:13:29 PM): one of those laws formulated by humans.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:14:01 PM): if one starts to tell about things most of the people do not understand, then that person must be insane
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:14:10 PM): basahin mo allegory of the cave.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:14:26 PM): yes, most of the time.. but not necessarily always.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:14:37 PM): although it is pretty much very rampant parin.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:15:02 PM): well atleast indi absolutely, kc kung absolute, we wont have technological progress.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:15:11 PM): anyway, my point was,
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:15:34 PM): yes?
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:15:50 PM): since the time and history arrows point to the same direction because of one law.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:16:01 PM): and being immortal would totally defy it.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:16:09 PM): thermodynamics.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:16:17 PM): The law of entropy.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:16:26 PM):
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:16:31 PM): kasi
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:16:48 PM): what if no one just failed to understand time? that time was following a rather different set of rules, one contrary to what we believed?
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:17:12 PM): i mean, everyone failed to understand the true nature of tume.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:17:19 PM): *time
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:17:33 PM): then doubt everything.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:17:38 PM): yes.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:17:40 PM): wag ka magaccept ng kahit ano in that case.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:17:49 PM): exactly.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:17:50 PM): tanungin mo na rin nanay mo.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:17:57 PM): ampon ka lng ata e
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:18:11 PM): no.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:18:21 PM): meron namang mga bagay na may sense para sa akion eh.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:18:35 PM): wag ka magaccept ng kahit ano in that case. << umoo ka dito e.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:19:01 PM): by last count, kahit ano was everything,
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:19:04 PM): anyway, un nga,
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:19:08 PM): the law of entropy.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:19:25 PM): kc the time arrow and history arrow points to the same arbitrary direction.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:19:40 PM): anong definition mo ng law of entropy?
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:19:48 PM): All the successful equations of physics are symmetrical in time. They can be used equally well in one direction in time as in the other. The future and the past seem physically to be on a completely equal footing. Newton`s laws, Hamilton`s equation`s, Maxwell`s equations, Einstein`s general relativity, Dirac`s ecuations, the Schroedinger equation—all remain effectively unaltered if we reserve the direction of time. (Replace the coordinate t which presents time, by –t.) The whole of classical mechanics, is entirely reversible in time.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:20:36 PM): entropy?disorder, heat release. the universe points to the direction of more disorder.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:21:06 PM): and,, to attain immortality, u must have an almost inactive, check that, totally inactive metabolism.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:21:12 PM): to avoid decay.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:21:32 PM): and metabolism is defined as turning things into simpler components.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:22:14 PM): breaking bread into its components, wheat flour glucose, etc, is more disorderly than just keeping the bread whole.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:22:20 PM): gets?
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:22:30 PM): i know.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:22:43 PM): basahin mo nga yung allegory of the cave.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:23:07 PM): if i find out that everything we believed initially was false, would you believe it?
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:23:25 PM): i would bet my balls you would call me insane.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:23:38 PM): with sufficient persuasion, yes.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:23:44 PM): i would believe.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:23:48 PM): but i would doubt at first.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:23:51 PM): generally.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:24:08 PM): cos we established it earlier that we should doubt everyrthing
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:24:11 PM): pero hindi ka pa nakakakita ng bangkay na naging tao diba?
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:24:14 PM): and evertyhgin includes you.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:24:29 PM): entropy nga.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:24:32 PM): pwet.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:24:42 PM): pero kahit nakapagpakita ako, hindi ka pa rin maniniwala sa akin.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:24:59 PM): e baket hinde?
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:25:04 PM): kasi meron kang mahahanap na reason na mag-aagree pa rin sa time frame mo.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:25:15 PM): na susunod sa entropy mo.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:25:30 PM): taama?
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:25:46 PM): yes. sorry. the only way to abolish a law is a disprove it. i defend my nature to be rational.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:25:52 PM): completely.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:25:57 PM): abolish it completely.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:26:05 PM): then i would believe.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:26:07 PM): you are human. you are entitled to do so.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:26:09 PM):
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:26:14 PM): and be a water boy for your family.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:26:15 PM): kakain muna ako.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:26:39 PM): cge, il post this converstaion on live journal. alam mo ba, andaming nawiwirdohan sa tin pag nguusap tayo?
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:26:42 PM): ang nerd daw.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:26:43 PM): haha
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:26:54 PM): laging may clash of ideas
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:26:58 PM): pero sensible sobra.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:27:01 PM): sheesh.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:27:06 PM): genius e db renze?
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:27:11 PM): wala taung magagawa.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:27:13 PM): haha
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:27:54 PM): sige!
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:28:14 PM): basahin mo ung allegory of the cave. maiintindihan mo kung gano nakakainis ang mga tao.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:28:20 PM): tangina ang weird nga natin.T_T
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:28:26 PM): one moment sex, the next, p6
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:28:28 PM): dammet
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:28:29 PM): haha
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:28:30 PM): ge ge ge
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:28:35 PM): pahiramin mo ko
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:28:53 PM): kc khit anong time time pa sabhin ko, wala akong pera pambili. =p
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:28:57 PM): YUN ang constant.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:28:58 PM): haha
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:53:13 PM): at hindi sex yung kanina.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:53:16 PM): :'C
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:53:32 PM): lust pa siguro but not sex agad.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:57:09 PM): yes, so hindi physics ung pinagussapan natin, quantum mechanics lang.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:57:45 PM): pero ang physics ay nakaroot sa time.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:58:08 PM): ang time ang nakaroot sa p6
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:58:11 PM): =]
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:58:17 PM): ok
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:58:20 PM): entropy.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:58:21 PM): nevermind
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:58:36 PM): neverending argument un. =]
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:58:37 PM): haha
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:58:39 PM): anyway
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:58:47 PM): ang sex din naman nakaroot sa lust.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:58:48 PM): =]
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:58:59 PM): ops wag mo ko saguitn ng not necesarili
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:59:06 PM): love too, yes
Lloyd (1/27/2007 7:59:14 PM): pero lust-love duality.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:59:22 PM): jan pwede na akong sumagot ng not necessarily!
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:59:27 PM): good answer!
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 7:59:33 PM): sakin yan ah.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:00:04 PM): hahah, sbi nga, everything u say willl be used against you
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:00:09 PM): pero sa showbiz dito iba e
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:00:23 PM): everything u say, will be misquoted, then used against you.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 8:01:57 PM): actually, di ko pa nairereconcile ung dualism ko sa possibility ng immortality ko.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 8:02:51 PM): tignan ko kung pwede yan sa school of thought ko. XD
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:03:06 PM): ung ano exactly?=p
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 8:03:24 PM): yung paglabas sa entropy.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:04:18 PM): ahh, ung cnabi ko?
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:04:20 PM): ahehe.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 8:04:38 PM): aling sinabi mo?
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:04:44 PM): ewan ko nga e.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:04:48 PM): alin nga ba dun?
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 8:05:23 PM): titignan ko kung mag-aagree ba sa bipolarist school of thought ko yung notion ng "defying the law of entropy"
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 8:05:36 PM): para maging immortal.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:06:25 PM): hahaha..
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:06:27 PM): cge cge
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:06:39 PM): lagay mo na ako ung isa sa mga chief proprietors.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 8:06:57 PM): ?
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 8:07:14 PM): proprietors?
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:07:30 PM): hehe,nevermind.katamad magexplain.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 8:07:34 PM): akin yun eh. collaborator ka lang.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:07:40 PM): ayun nkuha mo rin
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:07:43 PM): ahehe
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:08:12 PM): ndee, ung idea lang ng entropy in connection to immortality.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:08:40 PM): put me as ur rather, hmm, skeptic follower/observant.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:08:49 PM): *observer.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:09:02 PM): kc madalas kinacounter ko rin e
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:09:03 PM): haha
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:09:04 PM): XD
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 8:09:06 PM): collaborator. nung panahon pa ni buddha pa yan.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 8:10:05 PM): para wala kang nobel . XD
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:11:19 PM): ta***a mo.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:11:20 PM): hahaha.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:11:23 PM): =]
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 8:12:04 PM): nde.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 8:12:15 PM):
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 8:12:45 PM): research colleague.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:13:04 PM): wala pa ring nobel. gago.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 8:13:19 PM): kasi?
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:13:35 PM): how ironic na may nobel peace prize at war paraphernelia ang inimbento ni nobel.XD
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 8:13:46 PM): haha. TNT
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:14:20 PM): dinamita.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 8:15:23 PM): loko rin eh.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:15:58 PM): well, on his defense, bka namn inimbento nya un para sa mga kagay ni extra guy.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:16:02 PM): *kagaya
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 8:16:16 PM): dapat may joseph estrada/gl*** a***yo awards for honesty.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:17:03 PM): and m** p***da award for fidelity and abstinence.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:17:04 PM): amen?
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 8:17:08 PM): !!!
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 8:17:13 PM): haaahaaa. Ü
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 8:17:34 PM): aleister crowley award for chastity sana eh
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:17:43 PM): pwede rin.
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 8:18:07 PM): strike one pa lang naman ata siya eh.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:18:16 PM): or kaya or kaya...okay tama na, namilk na ung joke e
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:18:17 PM): haha
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:18:20 PM): at strike one
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:18:23 PM): well.cge
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:18:27 PM): after 4 years
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:18:31 PM): lets check it agen
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 8:18:33 PM): pero may naikwento siya sakin na ako lang daw yung sineryoso nyang lalaki.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:18:34 PM): =p
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:18:46 PM): at lahat ng iba puro sec lang!
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:18:49 PM): *sex!
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 8:18:50 PM): sa tingin ko iknwento nya rin yun sa lalaki nya ngaun
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:18:51 PM): wow!
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:18:54 PM): wat a relief!
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:18:55 PM): haha
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:18:59 PM): wahahahahahahahaha
Renze Santos (1/27/2007 8:19:29 PM): gusto ko cyang patayin.
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:19:42 PM): yes i knew eons ago. =p
Lloyd (1/27/2007 8:19:46 PM): hahaha

brenda mage

2007-01-21T07:42:47Z

Only music keeps my brain intact. Music preserves the structural and logical integrity of the said organ. It also rids me of unnecessary emotions.

Kahit gaano karaming Dream Theater, Liquid Tension Experiment, Jordan Rudess, Frederic Chopin, Tito, Vic and Joey, Johann Sebastian Bach, Something Corporate, Nicollo Paganini, Sitti Navarro, Metallica, Michael Buble, Vanessa Carlton, Pussy Cat Dolls, Michael V., Bonnie Bailey, Yellow card, Madonna, Kamikazee, Narda, Matt Monroe, Earl Klugh, Nat King Cole, Frank Sinatra, Elvis Presley, Asin, Peter Ilyich Tchaikovsky at Freddie Aguilar ay hindi mailagay sa kapanatagan ang utak ko.

please. hindi totoo yun.

hindi ko kaya.

hindi ko rin alam kung bakit.

sana nababasa mo 'to.

sabihin mo na lang sakin ang totoo.

pakiramdam ko kasalanan ko yun.

hindi ko rin alam kung bakit ako nagkakaganito.

sagutin mo na lang ako.

parang awa mo na.

rcesantos @ 2007-01-16T22:30:00

2007-01-16T14:31:47Z

nagpopost lang pala ako dito pag hindi occupied ang utak ko...or pag punong-puno.

at least i rid of myself of the thoughts of clearing the world off of ingrates and untrustworthy people.

but i'm still stuck.

i hope i can get out of the web...

you led me here...

_____________________

spark of attraction

flames of obsession

fires of lust

shroud of deceit

miasma of pride

mills of emnity

chains of guilt

_____________________

is there a way out of all of this???

please help me.

please be...

_____________________

my ray of hope.

my dawn of love

my dance of eternity.

mine.

_____________________

...

2006-12-28T13:00:10Z

i can't believe i slept christmas through.Ü

for about 15 times in my life I went throught this event called christmas. (three of which i might not be able to recover even a fragment of memory of those for I am still very little).

i just shook it off like fleas.

why?

i had a million reasons.

i cant believe i changed.

i was willing to sacrifice a christmas for other people.

instead of spending for such a pompous event, i slept.

why?

because somewhere down south of the island where i'm in,

someone's not eating.

someone's suffering from pain.

from agony.

from sorrow.

someone's dying.

i am not putting up that everyone who christmas is evil.

i'm just simply speaking my mind out.

that this christmas is not for christ aymore.

christmas becomes more and more materialistic as time goes by.

(cut it off. this isn't renze anymore)

just sharing.

ridding my mind off stuff.

to help make way for other useful stuff...

and the chance to flush away bad memories with them. such as...

you're such a liar.

you told me...

but why?

"Sana'y 'di na umasa pa, mukha tuloy akong tanga. Noon pa man ay mahal ka na, ngunit sinayang sa wala."
(ung tagalog by kamikazee)

Mamatay ka na agad.

you are the sun in my sky.

sun isn't always good. it can also burn you.

the light of my day.

light is not always nice. it can also make you cry.

the water to my to my throat.

water is not always good. it can also drown you.

the air that I breathe.

air is not always nice. it can also make you fart.

today

i gave you everything.

tommorow

i [then realized] was such a fool to fall for you.

and forever...

damn you.

contractions...

2006-12-13T11:27:08Z

the information gathered through my optical nerve of the action brought about by the contraction of your zygomaticus muscle bundles is still in the abstract region projected about by electrical pulses of the gray matter encased in a calcium conglomerate shell.

[your smile is still in my head. or in my mind. or in my brain. or wherever it may be entangled.]

damn you.

why am i suffering.

i'm so lame. i suck.

heeelp me. someone.

glacial moon II

2006-12-07T13:24:59Z

my nemesis has once proved stronger than me...not only bringing me down emotionally, colds, successfully evolved into another form that would bring much more sorrow and pain to me....

sinusitis...

damn colds.

and the moon is still shining, loneliness still pining...

why did you leave me like a used toilet paper...

i should be the one doing that...

sometimes semper fidelis does not pay.

it is nice to save something for yourself.

because it's hard to get yourself back when you're not useful and enjoyable anymore.

made from 100% virgin pulp.

please help save the environnment.

reuse used toilet papers...anyone...

the colds certainly went a long way...

it made all the way to my brain.

sorry. so long. goodnight.

glacial moon

2006-12-06T13:06:41Z

the moon, though as beautiful as ever, induces an extreme feeling of melancholy.

di,ba, mukhang rabbit ung spots ng moon?

please tell me i'm right...

arrgh i suck.

the enormous burden brought about by the moon to my emotions is nothing compared to the agony of having a cold...nobody would not agree with me that you one would prefer fever, rashes, allergy or anything quite worse other than colds. it's just damn irritating isn't it?

colds devoids a human soul of the essence of life.

it rids you of the happiness of feeling the stream of air you inhaled as it passes through your windpipes...

catching the scent of the air you breathe... (whatever it is, 'wag lang cubao breeze. i went to cubao this morning and the scent is just despicable.)

and most importantly it exonerates your joy of eating.

cursed colds.

argh.

i'm so lonely.

...

2006-12-02T14:34:25Z

nalungkot ulit ako.

nabasa ko nanaman yung mga bagay na inireklamo ko sa mga tao.

mga bagay na hiniling kong baguhin, ngunit hindi napagbigyan ang kahilingan.

ewan ko ba kung bakit kailangang may mawala sa iyo.

at kailangan mo lang laging maghintay.

maghintay.

at maghintay.

sabi sakin ni 02 ilabas ko lang daw sama ng loob ko.

kaso baka mapuno ang aming pozo negro.

(a very lame attempt to amuse myself. gah)

sorry.